I miss you... old friend (In my Loretta Devine voice)!!

Hey there. I have been so freaking busy and doing so much running I have not had a single moment to write in my journal. I tried a couple of nights to start but as soon as I logged in, I passed out lol. I feel like I neglected my blog a lil bit and I'm sowwie! Life is just a lot to manage right now but I'm trying my best to take care of it all.

I'm back from Texas... so sad I know. That's why I have been back on my busy track. The trip was awesome and super fun. I met so many people and had some real good food. Jack in the Box is officially one of my favorite fast food places now! Lol, I didn't believe the hype at first but now I am a fan. Oh yea, I bought a real bad scarf from Forever 21. It was gray and like this real like "crinkled" look... it's super hot and I might just wear it tomorrow! Besides that, it was just chilling most the time which I honestly needed even if I didn't want it. It was a well needed trip.

Well a lot has been happening obviously but nothing too serious. Just the same ole same ole really. Just a whole lot of work and school. Well not too much school, I almost felt like I dropped out for a while, lol. I guess since the semester is almost over, we haven't really been having too many classes so I really haven't been on campus much. But in a sense, I think that's a good thing, one less burden in my life right now. I haven't been to practice in a while either. Honestly not because I didn't want to but because I been so busy with other things. Like the Sunday practices just don't work for me. Those are really my only days off and there's a lot of other little things I have to catch up on. Then I been in Texas and NYC so I haven't been there in three weeks. So I don't know what that's turning to.

As for work... work is work! I'm still tutoring a million kids and feeling that it's consuming all my time. As soon as I got back in time, I dove head first right back into it. The only thing that keeps me going is the thought that I won't be doing it much more. I have about two more weeks and I'm done. My mom's wedding has passed and so when the honeymoon is over I'm going to let her read my letter I wrote. I will let her know all my feeling and how I'm ready to go. She doesn't know I write in this blog either, so I'm going to give her the addy and let her start looking at all my entries. I think it might not be the easiest thing to read at first but I think she will come around understand my feelings.

The wedding wore me out! I had a lot of stuff to do, even when I wasn't the coordinator anymore. I'm still honestly dealing wit some of the stuff. I had to burn things, find things, pick up things, do a lot. I'm still trying to catch up on my rest from all of it. I of course don't do it for the recognition, I just hope that it's appreciated. But the wedding did come out really nice, my mom dress was beautiful, the decorations were great, and the cake was so nice!! I had fun walking with Ms. Staten. We both fools so you know we had to act up a little bit walking dow the aisle. But I think the most fun for me was when I got on stage and danced with my daddy to pretty boy swag. He is not a dancer at all but he was doing his thing!! I was proud of pops. he turned on his pretty boy swag like his sons, lol.

But like I always say, things are going to get much better. The wedding has passed and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel getting even closer. I can't wait for her to get back so I can let her know everything.I already feel that heavy burden lifting off my shoulders and it feels great. My food for thought today comes from Mahatma Gandhi saying "Be the change you want to see in the world." That's what I'm trying to accomplish now. I know where I want my life to go and I see the path that I need to take to get there. I have to be positive and do positive things to have a positive life. I' already a very positive person, n ow I just need to wrk on these positive changes... my day is coming. And as always wonderful people... remember the Alamo!!