I'm still here!!

Hey!!!! So I have made it to day too, lol. Some people might think that's nothing but thats a huge accomplishment for me... always being so busy and having to actually sit here and do this; I'm proud of me!

But any who.. today was an okay day, not too eventful. Let's see... well first I had a doctor's appointment to go to this morning at 8:45. Is it just me or do they make you come an extra 30 minutes early just to look stupid in the waiting room? IDK. But what else? Oh, I went to class which I'm starting to hate and glad the semester is almost over. It's a reading class that teaches teachers ho to teach reading in their content area (a lot... I know). At the beginning it started out okay but now it seems to drag on and on and on......... Today I left out of class and just walked campus for a little bit because I couldn't take anymore. The bright side to that story though was we did get out of class like an hour early today; I was most grateful for that! Shortly after that I had to go to work which was okay today. I had my good kids so they didn't work my nerves, lol. The day went by pretty fast. I'm still tired of the job though... today was just more tolerable than others... don't think my feelings have changed.

After doing this all day and not getting off until 9:00, which sows you I had no time for myself, I just came home and daydreamed about moving to New York. I was online looking at different modeling websites and Craiglist for apartment listings, lol. I think that was the highlight of my day actually (sad I know). I'm just ready to get out of Jax so bad that it's like eating me alive! I was so close to telling my mom today that I wanted to move but couldn't do it. I said I will wait a little longer because she is renewing her vows in like 2 weeks with my dad so I didn't want to "ruin" that for her. So I decided to save it until after the wedding. I still just want to get it off my chest :-(

Well that's basically how my life went today, like I said nothing too special. I had just a real exhausting day mentally. I know tomorrow will be better, I'm claiming it right now. I like to live by the James Dean quote which says "Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today." I think that's so important because we need to learn to cherish life and stop doing what others want us to do and live for ourselves. But that's another conversation for another day. So right now I'll leave you and head to my dreamland where I see my picture hanging in the middle of Times Square... I know it's coming soon. And as always until next time... remember the Alamo! Goodnight.